Fire

آری، آری ، زندگی زیباست زندگی آتشگهی دیرنده پا برجاست گر بیفروزیش، رقص شعله اش در هر کران پیداست ورنه، خاموش است وخاموشی گناه ماست سیاوش کسرایی / / / / / Life is like fire, can burns forever. If we turn it on we can see flame dances from far away, other wise its dark and thats our fault.

khooshbakhti dar didane khoobihaye atraf ast.
Din dar shenakhte khoobiha va badihast, va anjame khoobihaye ke baraye ma va atrafian sood meresanad va parhiz az badihast.
az taalime zartosht

:)

I am older
hi
I'm happy and I am very happy, This is a new yr of my life, and I want to be in the way that i don't regret my days, so I want to be very very hapy, and I know that I want to belive in go d in the way that nothing else bother me, and the way ppl act or talk, and wat ever they say, and if they wasn't wat i want! that won't bother me, and i still be happy and graceful. I want to so belive in God, and belive that he wants the best of me, and I Also do my best, :) smile for a while/let be jelly/ (?)
I will do the best that to get what i want, but I won't make my self be petty, just becuz of others, I can be totally over some ones. and be happy. I know I am really pretty, and I will work on my other things to improve, like my eng. and I know there r other things to do rather than being like "typical ppls."
I am very happy. and I will try to feel God's luv in my heart and my life, and show it to others.
i want to get to the point of TOO much LOVE will kill u. any time ;)
Thanx God for every things. for great firends that u gave me, for the job that help me to get. for cute guys that u shaw me, and for the power that u gave me to be over them, thanx God for all precious moment that u gave me, for matyam, to be my firend, and the face that she remember my b- day. ;) and for all the energy that she gave me. and to know Roxana. for all nice ppl who r around me, and who r caring about me and my birthday, and for ppl who i can talk about my self with them, and i know they won't change the subject and they r interested to know. and Tahnx alot for parmida, to be so mature and so understanig in the time that i need. thanx to all the opportuinty that u gave me, and all great ppl that r around me. ppl who can open my eyes. and ppl who I can learn from them, thanx for great parents that u gave me, I know that not every body has that. + a great familly and a great Background, God really thanx do all teh ppl. all the forends and familly. and all the great opportunity that I can get. I know every thing is in ur power, i might get to some one who is not even live in S.t Cat. insome where totaly out of town, and go out for a coffe with him the day after!. I know u love me and u know wats going around, I want to be in ur hand and have a total trust on u. and let my heart be happy. and open.
khoda ya chakerim, mokhlesim darbast ;) (ay chakhan!)
THans for giving and letting me have firends who care for me and want to know about me, and thanx for opening my eyes to my relations so I can see this my self, and see the diffrence. thanx so much to help me see the diffrence, I belive thats such a bless,
khodaya khili ghorboonetima ;)

mokhlese shoma pant :)

chegahdr bade adam ra ignor konand, va chegahdr man hersam megiree az in jaryan, fariba emgoft ke har chiee ke sare adam biad taghssere khodoeshe, be khoosoos raftari ke digaran bahash mekonand. shayadam man ziadi geer dadam vase hamine ke ignoram mekonand..... hata age adami khili khooshtipo nice bashee, hata age adam ham asheghesh bashee, ama engar nabayad ziadi zoor kard, yadame sare jaryane S bood ke megoftam, ashegh shodanke ejbari nist, va chon yeki adam ra dosot dare in dalil lazemo kafi nist ke adam ham oon ra doost dashteh bashee....namosaviee khili delshekani hast, ama khoob hast.
jalebish ham ineke na mosavi ha geeremoon miad.....
shayadam eshegh tooy namosavi hast, vagarne az bein meraft.
ama faght bayad yadam bashe ke eshghe yektarafe ra mesle kane beheh nachasbam, hata age khili hot bashee oon eshgh, hata age khili be entezaresh boodam, bayad havasam bashe ke bishtare omram ra saresh talaf nakonam.
"dar fekre too boodam ke yeki halghe bedar zad,
goftam sanama gheble nama balke to bashi, to bashi
khier nabini ke man mesoozam"
alabteh y not? omidvaram ke az zendegish lezat bebare.
farghesh ba man tooy yek chize mohemee, oon zendegish khoodeshee, ya be ebararte dige khoodesh darejeye aval ra tooy zendegish daree, va vaseye man baraxe, oon ( ya fardi ba chenan nami) baram dar darejeye aval ra daree, man zendegim va fekro khialam ra baraye oon gozashtam, fekro khialam ra , hafez ra, internet ra, hata most of these blogger ha ro, hata dars ham ro, hata astrologyim, va fale gahhvam ro , va saate par ro, ( khili adame khorafatiee shodam? ) shayadam in khili khoob boode ke ba ham doost nashodim va be jayee naresid, otherwise i would have been total gone, and it might have end up to a very heartbreaking broke up for me, and probably he wouldn't even bother. not becuz he is selfish and snoby, but only becuz he put him self first, and i'm totally gone in him. maybe if i don't want to be like maryam and those things happen for me, i should first find a dignity and then a bf. I should first stand up on my feet, and trust my self and my feeling and my personality, and love my self then, let soem one else enter my life, maybe al these opportunities are for me to find out about my self, my strength, my weeknees and try to work on them, and when i could have give a diffinition about my self, who am I and wat I want, and wat I love, then let some one else come to my life. I should first "sar reshteye zendegie khoodam ra be dast begiram" then that new comer won't want to play around , and change my life and who I am, but If i don't know who i am then How can I expect others to respect to this dignity?
and I'm not gone act like a loser who want to get ignore. not a loser even in a great luv. ( oonam luve yek tarafe!!!)
I'm not gone ask him for a freeking date for his Bday.
luv ejbari nist remember that baby jan, and be sure he doesn't care, be 100% sure, if he did, he would have answered u. or at least once he would have said hi. and he knew u likes him, u know that ey? so khoodet ra bishtar sange rooy yakh nakon.
no body said it was easyyyyyyyyyy
but i should have be able to make it ey?
i know my self, i got over alot of ppl, just becuz i wanted, and i knew tgose ppl, and this guy is just a cuty :)
I shouldn't NEED any person, I should be able to stand on my own foot.
No body have ever said it won't be that hard.
and i will nejoy my javani, but i won't be a kaneh! and I will find out more about my self, I gone put that as my priority for this sumer, so i can have a strong personality! or atleast i would know my self, and later step would be loving myself, then i would be a little more like him :)


TO my baby babay with love :)

I was / am talking to elias, i just remember how granted I am to have my familly with me, and how lucky I am, taht I'm still alive
:)
thanx God

....
I screw up my electro
yash
california
MoMe
Brokly
Stanford

and screwing up


+ khariat

* no K

i screwed that even more than last term
f me

Haven't done my philo either,
havent
open the book yet, and today is 8th
was sick for electro exam! ( according to sudhakar "as usual")
I screw my whole yr, could have get the average in 90 in my freeking math and stat. at least high 90 in math, it was my last math course :( ever. I'm feeling so old but unmature.
maybe worse than a kid, those old days was great at least it was a momy who help u out. Mike got 98 % in stat 3rd yr. and even elias got 98% in math, my course.
feel like a looser + teh fact that i didn't do any thing, no faking bf. nothing elese, ididn't even do good in 1 course, wat if i can't get to any uni next yr? wats the fak then? teh worst thing is "az mast ke bar mast" its all cuz i didn't work hard,